Warrior Daughter of God

 Hey Everyone,          I know I am not keeping my promise to keep you up to date, sorry life as of late has been absolutely crazy and I am dealing with work burn out (that is another story).      This post came to me because I have been really, I guess aggressive when it comes to celebrating and being thankful for our mothers. I may not be a mom yet, but I hope that someday soon I can be. I just have to be patient and ask for help from my Father in Heaven. This month is a particularly difficult month for me and has been for the longest time now. I hope that I can fix that, but time will be the one to let me know.      A bit of backstory, I am the oldest of 3, so I am the one who made my mom, well, a mom. She has stayed by my side for 30 years now, and I don't see that changing. She is my rock, my therapist, my chauffeur, support system, everything you can imagine she has had to do, and never once complained. I a...

Hey Everyone,       So, it's been well over a month since I last checked in, oops! It's been a wild and crazy ride for me as of late. My anxiety has been at an all time new high, for me at least. Between, covid-19 scares at work, to being shut down for 3 days this week, to the elections here in the United States, my mind has been overwhelmed to say the very least. Now, this isn't my first ride on this anxiety filled roller-coaster so I know that I will overcome all of this, it is just a matter of calming my mind and taking time out for me.      Last month was all over the place for me. I LOVE October, and Halloween is my FAVORITE holiday. Now, I know a lot of people are probably like, "Christmas isn't your FAVORITE holiday?" I like Christmas, but not what it has become, meaning the commercialization that has come with celebrating the true meaning of Christmas, family and our Savior Jesus Christ. I love to give gifts, but I don't want others to fee...

Hey Everyone,       So, I started this post back in October of 2018 and I thought that I would add somethings to it and finally publish it for y'all to read.                                                                                                        10/14/2018        I hope that life is splendid for y'all. I have been thinking all about fitting in and standing out. This post came about because of the movie " The House with a Clock in Its Walls ". I love this movie for numerous reasons but the one reason that stands out to me, the most, is you are stronger when you stand out from the crowd.      Anyone who t...

  Hey Everyone,     WOW!! I can't believe that my last post was almost a full 2 years ago. Life has been extremely crazy for me lately, but I want to take the time to let y'all know what has been going on in my life since my last post.     Since my last post, a lot has happened, in just this year alone. Let's be real is this Jumanji game ever going to end? 😉 This year has been rough of all of us, with COVID-19 striking earlier this year, places we used to go just opening back up with new rules and restrictions. It feels like a new normal, I pray that is NOT the new normal because we don't need to live in a world full of fear, anger, hate and anxiety. These things are the things that I am trying my best to keep out of my life, but I am only human and I have my weaknesses just like everyone else. Let me start at the beginning.       So, in my last post I mentioned that I was working at a recreation center, in the Child Watch area. We...

Hey Everyone, I hope life is treating you with good times and fun memories. So, just a small update on my life, I have been working at a recreation center in the Child Watch area and I am LOVING it!!! What is it about kids that I love? Well, everything to be exact. I have found that working with kids in this job and my last job that kids know no fear or even fully understand it. So, how is it that as we get older the fears we once had as children become so massive that we can't seem to live our lives to the absolute fullest and happiest?  I remember growing up I had fears of dinosaurs (still do actually), monsters under the bed, and a fear of failure in my teen years. As I have grown, I don't fear monsters under my bed anymore because I know that they don't exist at least not in the way that they are portrayed in movies and books. Don't get me wrong monsters are real, but we all have different monsters that we struggle to fight and defeat. Other times we just si...

Hey Everybody,  I sure hope that life has been treating you well these past few months. I know that it has been a little bit since I last wrote. So, since I last wrote things have come to light for me. I thought that I had finally understood my life and thought that things were calming down, I was so wrong! As you all know I worked at a Special Ed preschool, while working there a condition called Sensory Processing Disorder was brought to my attention, because one of the students seemed to be struggling and it wasn't anything like Autism, but seemed to have similar quirks. Through this amazing student, I learned something about myself that I never knew. I have a Sensory Processing Disorder.  All of my life I haven't been able to identify or connect with numerous people in my life, family, friends and strangers. Lately I have been going back to into my memory bank and realized that little trivial things that never bothered my siblings, where HUGE problems for me and usually...

Hey Everyone,  I  hope all going is well for you. So, you are probably wondering why I entitled this post "Invisible". I will tell you, and part of my life story will be apart of this post. I lost my dream job this week, due to differences between me and others. I had one vision in mind and the others had something else in mind, so I was outnumbered. Problems arose that I could see and wanted to fix or at least ease them, because let's face it when you are working with kids anything can happen at the drop of a pin. It seems like the others didn't see what I saw, so I was the trouble maker in this instance. The thing is, is that I AM these kids. I saw myself in everyone of them, even if it was just a sliver of myself, but using the knowledge that I have gained throughout my life has greatly helped myself and others along the way. So, is it wrong of me to want to help everyone that I work with? Ease the load of my bosses? See our future be stronger, independent, an...