Warrior Daughter of God

Hey Everybody,  I sure hope that life has been treating you well these past few months. I know that it has been a little bit since I last wrote. So, since I last wrote things have come to light for me. I thought that I had finally understood my life and thought that things were calming down, I was so wrong! As you all know I worked at a Special Ed preschool, while working there a condition called Sensory Processing Disorder was brought to my attention, because one of the students seemed to be struggling and it wasn't anything like Autism, but seemed to have similar quirks. Through this amazing student, I learned something about myself that I never knew. I have a Sensory Processing Disorder.  All of my life I haven't been able to identify or connect with numerous people in my life, family, friends and strangers. Lately I have been going back to into my memory bank and realized that little trivial things that never bothered my siblings, where HUGE problems for me and usually...

Hey Everyone,  I  hope all going is well for you. So, you are probably wondering why I entitled this post "Invisible". I will tell you, and part of my life story will be apart of this post. I lost my dream job this week, due to differences between me and others. I had one vision in mind and the others had something else in mind, so I was outnumbered. Problems arose that I could see and wanted to fix or at least ease them, because let's face it when you are working with kids anything can happen at the drop of a pin. It seems like the others didn't see what I saw, so I was the trouble maker in this instance. The thing is, is that I AM these kids. I saw myself in everyone of them, even if it was just a sliver of myself, but using the knowledge that I have gained throughout my life has greatly helped myself and others along the way. So, is it wrong of me to want to help everyone that I work with? Ease the load of my bosses? See our future be stronger, independent, an...

Hey Everyone, So, I have left retail for good and I am LOVING my job as a teacher's assistant. Getting to work with these little angels with attitudes (I mean that in a good way) is such a blessing to me. I look forward to work (most days, I do have off days ;) ).  Looking back at this past week, I have realized just how richly blessed I am. I had the unique opportunity to be the head teacher for a day this past week. Having that experience reminded me of some conversations I had with with others when I originally got this position and recent conversations with some of my family members. So, a lot of people know that I have always wanted to work with kids, forever it seems like and when this opportunity came I jumped at the chance to finally fulfill my dream of working with kids. The conversations that I have had with others is quite interesting, many have said that I would want to further my education and others have asked if I would like to become a teacher, for a career. For a...

Hey Everyone, So, I have been thinking a lot about things that are opposite, but compliment one another. The thing that came to my mind immediately were the elements: Earth, Air(wind), Fire, and Water. I will now explain my point of view on this. When people think of fire and water, they think that they don't mix and can never mix. I have thought long and hard about this, because yes water will kill the fire, but if you put the water into a container over a fire, the fire takes the icy cold water and makes it warm. When water is hot it disinfects, we take hot showers and a hot bath relaxes our sore, exhausted, tight muscles. That wouldn't happen without the heat from the fire. Fire is dangerous, but beautiful at the same time. There are so many benefits that fire has to offer us. It cleanses, heats, gives light, and it can give life new life. When a wildfire happens, there is destruction but after a time life comes back to that area, newer and stronger then ever. When it...

Hey Everyone, Yes, I am finding more and more time to sit and write down my thoughts. ;)  Since the holidays are coming and going, I would like to share some memories with you. We will start with Thanksgiving, one that me, my mom and dad will never forget. I was about 4 years old, and we always went to my grandparents for Thanksgiving. My mom is the BEST pie maker, so she was in charge of making the pies for our dessert. This year in particular my dad found this kitchen gadget that peels, slices, and cores apples and he wanted to try a freshly made apple pie that year. So, we packed up all of the items we needed to take with us to Thanksgiving and headed over to my grandparents. As we were getting dinner prepped and cooked my mom was working away on the pies. This kitchen gadget, that my dad had bought, had a suction cup on the bottom to keep it from moving and causing serious injury. Mom had finished making the pies, and was cleaning up. Well, we couldn't get the stupid gadg...

I had a good friend of mine ask me the question, "What brings you inner joy?" I responded with "That's a really good question." I hadn't really thought about it, because I am usually just happy and don't give it too much thought as to why. But as I thought about my answer this is what came to mind and heart, it's the simple things in this life that bring me joy in every way and when I don't focus on the simple things I am beyond miserable and full of anger.   Okay, a lot of things depend on what mood I am in. I can have several moods in one given day. Sometimes saying a prayer in the morning brings me joy and peace of mind through out the day, and when I don't do that watch out because I can be the most unbearable person to be around. But on occasions saying that prayer, is forgotten by me and the roller coaster of emotions begins. At times it is helping others, whether I am at work or not, just knowing that I was able to help them brings m...

Hey Everybody, Sorry it's been a while, work and life got CRAZY but what's new. With the seasons changing, holidays coming and going it reminds of the numerous times that I change. Sometimes it's a physical change, other times it simply facing a challenge head on (one that I have been avoiding for way too long), and sometimes it's returning to who I am. So before Halloween I dyed my hair a red color, not shocking Ariel red, but an auburn red. I also cut it, not too short I don't pull that off well. I love that I look like me but a bit different, I naturally have red in my hair so I didn't have too many people notice or at least say anything about my hair. I don't mind though, it was a subtle change and one that I like. When I get bored with what I am doing in life, I love to change things up. Yeah, it's not always for the best, but I hope that it doesn't last very long when it's a wrong choice. There are times where I change my personality ju...